Do I cry?

ABSOLUTELY!
I cry when get overwhelmed, which is often, I cry when I am mad, when I am hurt, when I am stressed, when I am thankful, when I praise the Lord, and when else could I think of... When I was little my family used to call me a cry baby. I guess I haven't changed that much.
Funny thing is, I think Millie is following right into my footsteps. She is very dramatic and cries a lot also. Jason Crabb sings a song his dad wrote called Sometimes I Cry. Oh that speaks to my heart. Some people look at my life and have false impression of the life I live, they think I don't have problems, and that life is just easy peasy for me. Life is heard, being a wife a mother, a homeschool mommy, is hard. It's all very draining. Many days I think what in the world am I doing, why did the Lord entrust His precious children in my care, as I shake my head. I would not change my life, my husband, my children, the choice to homeschool for anything in the world, but it is hard. My husband, my children, our choice to homeschool is truly a blessing beyond what I can explain, but it is such a hard and as I said draining road. Often I think, can I have a day where I am not asked many times a day, mommy I want a drink, mommy I need something to eat, mommy turn my light on, exeter a, exeter a, exeter a. I try to tell myself I will miss these days, when my kiddos don't "need" me. In the midst of the "storm" it's hard to see the other side. Not that raising kids is a storm but you know it's hard. We give, give, give and we end up emptying ourselves. At times when my mind is on so much and I have a hard time focusing on the Lord I pray that the Lord will empty my mind that He will fill me. When we give so much of ourselves that we are so empty we have nothing else to give, or if we try to give anything else it's not even that good, we have to depend on the Lord to fill us with His presence, His strength, His encouragement, His word, His love. Thankfully the Lord still loves me and He is still molding me into the wife, mother, servant He wants and needs me to be. Thankfully He still love me despite all the tears that I shed. Psalm 56:8 You put my tears in a bottle. One day I will only cry tears of joy, and what a day that will be.